ev-er-y day a star is bornnnnn...clap for em' clap for em'

LEAVE ME, LEAVE ME...I FUCKING CANT STAND YOU/ WISH I HAD THE COURAGE TO SAY EVERYTHING I PLANNED TO/ MY GIRLFRIEND! MY GIRLFRIEND?!?...CALL HERSELF MY GIRLFRIEND, TELL ME THAT WE 'POSED TO BE TOGETHER TIL THE WORLD ENDS...wait, i hope im not coming off like im love-starved...its just a good song...which brings me to the reason for my revival...the blog is god, and i am his calf, Jesus Christ...back to my narcissism...ummm....the previous months have been great...problems, setbacks, strange occurances were expected...thats what happens when you dont trust anyone and everything is seen as possible...rain pour made up solely of meatballs? easy breezy....dick dying 2 min. into a romp (i did say strange occurances lol)...but things happens love, and its on to the next dot dot dot...and i do mean that....i truely believe that life is a group of moments...no set amounts including the moments themselves and the time you have on this earth to fulfill (or in my case, leave un-fulfilled)...on to the next job, woman, feeling...i've fallen in what feels like love twice this week alone...im not like normal people, my imagination is perverse and just....amazing LOL...men can see themselves fucking or being fucked by a woman ten seconds after they enter the room...thats just a warm up for me...answer the where? in a supermarket, library, beach, balcony of the white house....fucking lame...and sadly un-creative....i see time of day, breezes, clothes, moods, history, positions and i dare say ETC....i used to think i was just weird...but now its a gift...now i see why writing this movie is coming along easily...because i envision it to the T, and with rigorous typing...put it on paper....ahhhh thought processes and such, i mean i go back to not being exceptionally great looking...look at my friend, also had aspirations of being an actor, (no homo) but the nigga is gorgeous....but other then melrose place...he isnt gonna get shit....just because he doesnt have what i know i do....IT!!!!...everybody sees it....they hate it, love it, want to casually fuck it, but they acknowledge its presence...and as hard as it is to believe, i actually believe in myself even more now....so on with the weight loss, dentist appts....shit i might even pick up a drug habit....RIP Heath Ledger....so onward...onward!!!...cause if you aint moving up, you aint moving...PERIOD!!!...shit, listening to enough Drake to fill a yacht....friends (using the term loosely), stay focused...stop caring about others more then yourselves....i dont want all of you to succeed...well maybe all of you but after me...like I before C...like...i got nothing lol....just be happy....and dare i say, seek it out...look for it...have a plan and then abandon that plan and then pick up another one....mr. right isnt out there...well the truth is i dont know if he is...cause i aint looking for the fucker...but why rest you hopes on him...idk just a thought, and with all of this good tv on, why are people still watching HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN 10 DAYS, THE WEDDING DATE, LOVE AND BASKETBALL...the first two are decent but shit...let me tell you....i have an ex that had L and B over 10 different times (dvd and vhs) and will still drop everything and watch it to this day....sad, idk...weird...fucking yes....i dont have anything else for ya'll for now...just caught a spark (and a email from Ms. Anonymity, herself)...felt like contradicting myself and saving a few of you losers...before i takeover the brakes over nigga and imma keep killing em until the day that Dee's overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr


-DBBBbbb ;)